StoriesOfMyLife♥ --
Sunday, February 15, 2009 ( 6:48 PM )
Bad&Good news . Mostly Bad uh . Lol . But nevermind , Shaffy staying strong . I guess . Abang just came back from Cambodia last Saturday . He bought me a truckcap and shades . Thank you Abang very much . Fucking nice I swear . Then he tell us about Cambodia . How was it . How was the food and all that .. Then about the orphanage there . & on that , it kinda touched my heart .. & I feel like i wanna go there . Seriously . He said theres this cute little boy .. Wanted to hold him in his hand while walking .. But my bro was like busy talking to other kids , so he didn't realise uh . Suddenly that boy just went walking with a sad face .. Then my brother saw , call him and hold his hand . & he was all happy and stuffs . Another cute lil girl , call Kak Wawa and just hugged her . & When Kak Wawa carry her to take pic , she kissed Kak Wawa . Awwwwwwww , sweet right ?! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr . Then bro tell me at the orphanage , theres this guy , same age as my bro , 19 , came to him and talk .. My bro said his hot , but i cannot really believe my brother bcos he's hot & my hot are waaaaaaaay diff . Seriously . Lol . Then the 19-year-old guy told my bro that he wanted to go Uni , but he got no money . My reaction when bro told me was seriously like , WTF ?! Kesian siol . I feel like going Cam & give him money to go Uni & adopt all those lil kids .. They're fucking cute .. If i got time , i upload the pics okay ? The saddest thing is , I can see a change in my dad's & mom's prangai . Seriously . Its obviously they choose my bro more then me . But then , Shaf dont that care ah . By 'dont that care' as in , i dont give a fuck they love my bro more or whatever . but still , the feeling is there , im a human too right ? Uh haiz , then i recently fought with someone special that i love .. But its all my fault , cos i find fault with him xDD Lol . Rabak pei Shaf . But we are okay after that . He kept calling me 'baby' just because i told him my parents did . Then by realeasing my stress bout all the thinking i have to deal with , my family & i went to Mustafa . & Yes , you guessed it right , my mom's cousins' place . And by cousin , i mean , banglas . Sarcastically ah . xDD Then otw there , in the car , guess what ?! ALFI CALLED ME ! Weeehooo . Not saying im happy , im just glad he still contacting me .. Weeehooo ! Lol . Can see a drastic change of mood in me . Mom was like , 'Eleh , mentang2 Alfi call dier , happy ah tu !' xD Cb eh my mom . We talked bout things .. Yeah things .. You dont need to know .. LOL ! I just shopped happily there .. Making jokes & disturbing my bro as per normal . Seriously , everybody's looking at us . Hahaa . After that when i got home , I fought with Khairul . Because i was all moody then he made me more angrier by putting down the phone when im talking . Its just basic respect ah , when a girl is talking , listen . Then he msg me , IN CAPS , saying why im like this all that , why i dun wanna talk to him all this . What fuck ?! Then he say he's stress being with me . I fed up , I just say , 'in that case , do you wanna stop contacting me?' Then he call , then he said sorry & stuffs . & since then he kept smsing me to like comfort me and ask if im okay or not . Seriously , HE'VE CHANGED . My smses are now more to his name then Affey's . Its like , Affey's sms and his sms are competing each other . Lol . Don't get it wrong , still , me & Khai , JUST FRIENDS . Now , im at Comp Lab 4 of ChuaChuKangSecSchool with Ika , Dayang , Insy , Putri & Khalisah . Kay , dat was sooo formal . Lol . Seriously , no work to do , feel like updating blog , so , here you are ! Hahaa . Taking care people . I wanna update again . Pics about me & ika just now Art cos bloody teacher never come . Haha . The pics were funny , believe me . We just suddenly thought of taking funny faces pics . Uh yeah , i forget , i gtg . xDD Byebye people , taking care . Love you , muahsmuahs (to those who I know only) LOL ! :DDi want him back in my life , but i know it will be the biggest mistake , i guess ..
i need to move on ? i need to accept the fact that i need to love someone else ?
Comeon ppl , give me something , anything ?! Lol .
Love can't be forced .
Knowing someone you love attached already hurts ..
And by that , its not 'him' ..
Its someone else who i still have feelings for .
But he's a pure matrep ?
So why should i still have feelings for him ?
Uh , grr , SHAF ! Stoppit . Control your emotions ..
Don't love alot of ppl .
& dont love alot of ppl , it means , GUYS espeacially .
Stop & think bout something else more important Shaf !
There's more years ahead ..
There's enough time for a new , fresh one isn't there ? :DD
