Stop being fucking biased .
Stop choosing who you love more .
Stop scolding me for who i am .
Stop asking me to stop being me , cos this is fucking me .
& not even you can change who's me .
Live with it . Hate it , fuck it .
You acted all sooo good to me .
Asking me to stop being rude to my bloody brother ..
& all i say was , 'Gyeah , everything bout him is bloody darn right .'
& you had to blew it all up .
What's bloody perfect with him ?
What's your bloody problem that it was all about him not me ?
I'm a part of you too .
Stop making him the bloody reason why you hate me .
Stop making me the bloody reason why you love him .
Everything is perfect on him .
But not me .
& for you bloody info .
Im trying my best to change to a whole fucking new me .
A whole new look & a whole new 'Shafiqah' ..
But you just don't bloody understand .
You won't even give me a chance being me , so why would you understand ?
Maybe you're ashamed for having me as your daughter .
With terrible looks&attitude problem ..
I know everybody was all like , 'Shafiqah this ..' 'Shafiqah that ..'
So what's making them bloody perfect ?
I know i'm fat but what makes you a size ZERO ?
I know i'm ugly but what makes you all better then me ?
But i know in every fucking person , there MUST be something beautiful in them .
Regardless nose , eyes , body , size , hands , foot , atttitude or whatever ..
Neither words nor actions can say .
NOBODY is PERFECT ..
Mark my words .. Nobody ..
If you're saying Allah , then i have to agree .
Then what makes you greater than him ?
What makes you more perfect than him ?
I know im UNPERFECT , but i know i can improve .
I know im UNINTELLIGENT , but i know i can study .
I know i don't have a happy&perfect family , but i know , i'm still living ..
I know nobody loves me but im sure Allah do .
Every single fucking problem i have , i intend to run away ..
But tell me whats the use ..
You'll be only wasting your pocket money to survive and buy food for yourself outside ..
You need to bring your school uni or just drop out of school ..
You need to find a place for you to stay which for me , my case , I'll have no one to tompang to , cos some of my friends/cuzzies can't like keep their mouth shut .
& now , all i do is just bloody care bout that fucking someone when he/she didnt even care bout me ..
All my love lifes came & go as and when they want to ..
People treating me like a piece of crap , tossing me around like nobody's business .
Scolding me whenever he/she wants regardless of how i feel ..
Throwing tantrums at me like there are no other people in this bloody world to throw tantrums to ..
Uh haiz .. Put a stop to it ah people please . Im sick & tired of living this fucking life . Life is hard , gyeah i noe , that's what evrybody say .. Im all oh-so-lucky cos im eating food , drinking water , going to school unlike those kids in Africa .. Just imagine , if i'm one of the Afric people , & i had to deal with all of this problems . I would die already i tell you . You will see me in the papers tmrw . Im not asking for more god , seriously . I rather live the lifes of the African people who are poor but happy with their families&friends .. Not having families&friends which instead of making you lead a happy life , but making your life more worse .. Fuck this fucking life of mine . People , treasure your life . Im treasuring , but im getting the bad impacts too . Whatever it is , i just wanna live my life happily .. I never been a hater , its just that i love them in a crazy way ..
Read , see , appreciate . Keep your bad comments to yourself if you can . Coz you dunno whats life being me ..
& to that dude over there ... Im being CARING , im concerning bout you .. Dont complain to me that i dont give a darn bout your life .. Stop smoking & drinking .. Your bloody face is seriously pathetic with than drunken face . Go for a checkup or something .. I dunwan my bestfriend to lead a life like an asshole . & Ahtoyy dear , i know you don't want to talk to me because i didnt meet you today afternoon , but im really really tired i swear . & i'm sorry ;[
Abdul Wafiy ; imysm .

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